Love, Life and all that jazz

As my extended weekend draws to a close it is that time again to ask...What am i here for? Why do i need to go to college tomorrow? I guess the answer to the second question is quite easy and can be answered in 2 parts..

1. Attendance is important. Why i don't know but it one of those axioms that nobody dares to question...also u won't be allowed to write the univ's if it less than 75% (maybe that's why nobody questions it).
2. If my folks see me lounging around one more day in my glorious inertness then they might kick me out permanently.

The answer to the first question though is perplexing. I haven't the faintest clue what i am doing here. Infact what are all of us meant to do here. Yash Chopra would say that we are meant to fall in love. I find that a tad stupid not-to-mention foolhardy. What if u fall in love very quickly (Romeo and Juliet fell in love at the age of 13 and then said 'Now that our job here is done lets kill oursleves') then there is really nothing much to look forward to. Dhirubhai Ambani says that we are here to dream and to live upto our dreams. Now that is too trouble-some. I don't want to make a mutli-billion dollar conglomerate just to see it being split by my kids...what a waste of time that would be..shareholder value my foot.

Then there is Rakyesh Omprakash Mehra who thinks that any change that is positive is welcome and that if anyone can bring about that change has served his purpose. I what like to agree with that but the prospect of walking on the streets shouting slogans and then getting beaten up for all my troubles is not really rewarding if u were to ask me. So What is it that i should do? One part of me (the optimist part) thinks that i should do whatever it takes to ensure that my name be remembered for ever...which could be creating a multinational corporation and split it several times over, shouting slogans and getting beaten up for it, or falling in love and killing myself after i do so( though most of my friends would say that's what they all would want to do and by doing so my name is not going to etched in history). Then there is the other part (complacent part) of me which feels that all this is a mere waste of time and that everything u,do somebody else will do it better so that u will be quicly fade away from public memory (yes...somebody will device a better way of getting himself killed after he has fallen in love).

The dichotomy that i am facing is not very easy to explain. Both parts have a valid point and they seem to be fighting for my mind where the winner will guide it to the direction they want take it and thus the purpose of my very existence will be answered. All i can say is "Let the best part win"....though i am rooting for the more complacent part as the optimist's view of life seems to be a lot of hard work.